love of my life of my life as well do you feel..? i do i do how is this real? how lucky we are what do we do? i haven’t a clue.
comforted by earth’s soft colors, in the void things are still enough to seek a window of clarity. the sky sighs; for a moment we can give into its embrace. very gentle, maybe i can mimic its grace.
in my head is a silver screen that plays each moment you’ve had with me and i haven’t missed a scene. hospital rooms have fluorescent lights and my legs are cold but you hold me tight and tell me not to worry. thursday night at the start of fall a movie played that i can’t recall … More moments
i keep thinking that there is a world inside this world where there is no pain. maybe if i surround myself with beauty, nothing will hurt me. maybe if i embrace waywardness and join the other misfits, i will be safe. maybe if I lean entirely into the people I love without their awareness, this … More i keep thinking
life flashes before me with three chances to understand each frame. meanwhile i’m stuck in the white space, in the imperceptible moments of black before we get back to what you came here to see. watch it 72 times a second, you’ll never see me.
remember that m0rning y0u cried at the dunkin donuts and i just stared at the sn0w falling 0utside the wind0w? it was early and y0u were upset but i had class s0 i just ap0l0gized and left. remember that saturday night i was all al0ne and talked t0 y0u 0nly because there was n0thing else in … More remember that m0rning
sad. sad and i don’t know why. happy. happy and i don’t know why. feeling sweet feelings that are only phantom. they don’t belong to me. who am i stealing them from? there are no answers only impulses. something sour in my stomach and something buzzing in my mind while my brain hovers, frozen, between … More i wrote this very late with alcohol
i crave above all else pure and complete sincerity. this is something my soul silently begs for. there’s something about watching sincerity spill (sometimes clumsily) out of goofy, patched-up humans. how endearing. the honesty of people who know the length of their folly as well as the simple & patient love that brought them back … More sincerity